Give Me Faith

I Need You

To soften my heart and break me apart

I Need You

To open my eyes to see that you're shaping my life

How many times have we said to someone 'I need you'? How many times have we started something to be half way through and realize we need help? For me that can be weekly. I usually am asking for help or I need someone when I'm trying to fix something in my home or on my car. I have asked for help at work when it's come to meeting deadlines or if I just have so much work that I cannot keep up with. The one that I normally don't ask for help from is God. Now don't get me wrong. I've asked him for help before. I've asked him to help me find and receive a job. I've asked him for help with my health and the health of those around me. However I haven't asked for help in the spouse department.

Sure I've prayed for my future spouse and I've prayed for God to bring him to me, but I haven't actually said to God, I need you. I need you to show me why I'm waiting. It can be hard to admit that we need help...I do not like asking for help. I feel that if I'm asking for help that it's a sign of weakness. But it's not that at all. Asking for help, or asking for something of someone because you need them is not weak...it's actually strong. However there is a stigma that you just can't do it...you need help.

I had one of these moments recently while I was at home. Since I live alone, I can crank up the volume on my music as loud as I want, or as loud as I think my neighbors will accept it. This week while I was working on cooking dinner a song came up on my playlist. I have saved Elevation Worship (this should be no surprise to everyone as I love everything Elevation...lol) as an artist in my library and one of their songs came up. It is called Give Me Faith...hence the title of this blog post. I had to listen to it a couple of times to really get the lyrics. https://youtu.be/dNwt7LQiYck

It's written as a way to lay everything down and ask God to show us His work in our lives. It's a way for us to surrender everything to Him, for us to show our trust in Him. The chorus resonated with me in my journey and while I'm waiting. As I wrote previously patience in this season of waiting is not my strong point. I take this one aspect of my life back time and time again.

All I am, I surrender

Give me faith to trust what You say

That You're good and Your love is great

All I am...everything that I am and have. We need to surrender even the toughest parts of our lives to Him. We are quick to think we can do a better job. We think that since it's our lives and making our own decisions that it will bring us closer to the goal we have in mind. It's taken awhile for me to really fully grasp that concept. Everything...and I mean everything that I am and what I desire needs to be laid down at His feet.

I may be weak, You're spirits strong in me

My flesh may fail, my God You never will

Psalm 73:26, a song of David says “My flesh and my heart faileth; but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever” (KJV). We are weak, we fail, it's what happens but we need to know that God is our strength and portion. In my singleness I looked for so many ways to meet guys, ways to avoid the inevitable loneliness that happens. I tried so many different avenues and the last time I tried online dating, when nothing was happening, I felt God so clearly speak to me and say that this was not the way he wanted me to meet the man He has for me. Now don't get me wrong, online dating works for some...I have friends that met their spouses on dating websites. It's just not the avenue I feel God leading me down.

For me personally this will be the struggle that I will always take back from God. I will always think I have a better way of doing things. This song for me is a reminder that even when I feel alone, I feel that I can do a better job, I need to have the faith that God works in those who believe in Him.

How are you waiting well? Are you leaving everything at God's feet to allow Him to work in you during this time? I encourage you to cry out to God when you're sad or frustrated. How we wait in this season will dictate how much we allow God to work in us and through us. He has jobs for us to do in this season that will greatly shape and encourage us in the future.

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